Alright; lots to cover here, in a short amount of space.  (Well, I guess it’s actually really unlimited, but I have to cut myself off at some point or I’ll just ramble on endlessly …)

Two things I’m concerned with; not only do I need to exercise, and stick to my vegan diet, but I also need to watch my caloric intake.  I was actually surprised with how many not so healthy things I can still eat – I mean, I can’t have that giant ice cream sundae with the fudge and sprinkles on top, but I can have a bag of Doritos and a two-liter of coke and get off scott-free.  So … Alright, I’m going to level with you.  I looked up how many calories I am supposed to eat per day in order to lose weight according to my gender/age/weight/height.

For a female that’s about 5’2″ and weighs 212lbs, that’s 1696 calories.  Per day.  Except Wednesday and Saturday; then I have to eat 2036 and 1866 calories respectively.

Holy crap, that’s a lot.

I jotted down what I remembered eating yesterday just to compare what I was eating to what I actually am supposed to eat, and I only had just a little over 1300 calories.  Combining all three meals and snacks together By the time I looked that up this afternoon, I had only had 450calories.  That’s it.  450 calories.

My body must think I’m on a starvation diet or something. : /  (Even though I always eat when I’m hungry …)

So I proceeded to eat 700 calories of my home made vegan macaroni and cheese (made with non-dairy soy cheese) with a glass of almond milk for dinner, and that bumped me up to 1200 calories or so … But I still have to eat so much more, and it’s already 7:00pm here … Gahhhhhh … Also, when it got down to the end and I didn’t think I could eat any more, I was sitting at my plate, shoveling the mac n cheese in, thinking to myself “I will loose weight I will loose weight I will loose weight” (Spoiler Alert: I ended up throwing out the last half a cup or so of the macaroni and cheese …)

That just seems so wrong to me … xD


After those shenanigans, I started looking around online under “how to start exercising”, and it has given me a few useful pages.  A bunch of them suggest that you treat yourself to something if you manage to keep up your exercise regiment for a week or a month or whatever, and that reward can’t have anything to do with food.  (Which makes excellent sense) Suggestions I saw were going to a spa for a day, going to the movies, planning a girls’ night with your friends, etc.  However, every time I run into this, I see that it always explicitly says, “however, if you do NOT keep up your regiment, you have to refrain from your reward”.

I never really thought about it before, but this makes excellent sense.  I mean, I can say “if I work out for a week, I’ll treat myself to a movie on Friday”, but if by the time Friday rolls around I only exercised once, I can always say “well, I exercised a little … and I really want to see this movie, so …” It basically take the consequence out of it.  Which sort of completely undermines the whole non-food reward system.

So I decided that I’d set a few goals for myself and see how it goes.

If I can keep this up for two weeks, I will get my legs waxed.  Now, I know what you’re thinking – wow, that just sounds like more torture; how is that a reward? And I don’t know – maybe it will be.  But I’ve never had it done before, and I’ve heard you can go three to four weeks between waxes and not need to shave or anything; and that sounds really convenient to me.  So I would give it a try.  If I can do it for another two weeks (which would effectively be exercising and eating my normal calories for a full month), I’d get a pedicure!  I love getting those – my mom has been getting her nails done by the same nail lady for years, and I don’t have acrylics, but I do like getting my feet massaged.

I’ll keep up the waxing unless I decided I can’t handle the pain if I keep exercising and dieting – and I figure if I keep up exercising and dieting for 3 months, I will cough up the money and join a gym.

That’s looking a little down the line though, so we’ll see about that …

Now to get my bicycle fixed so I can start exercising on Monday …

But first, I have to switch my laundry :3