Head Up, Stay Strong – Fake a Smile, Move On

Hi Guys.  It’s been a while since I’ve written a blog post  – I’ve got a TapOut XT update for you (sort of) and an explanation – but it’s about all the energy I have right now, so it’ll probably be a short post.

First off, as far as TapOut goes, I am very impressed with the system – but this is only a sort-of update, because I have to tell it to you straight; I haven’t been doing the work out religiously, or even really at all.  I did for the first 2-3 weeks or so, and the results were great!  Everything was tightening up, I lost 3.5lbs/week – in fact, from when I started counting calories and biking in the middle of the summer, to the point where I got TapOut and did the regiment for 3 weeks, I had lost 30 lbs!  I felt good, and I was starting to look good, and I was really proud that I was losing the weight all on my own …

And then, I did the dumbest thing ever.

I went on a 4 day vacation.

Took a Friday and Monday off of work, and decided to go to visit a friend – I planned on being good.  I brought TapOut and exercise clothes for 3 of the 4 days (Sunday would have been my resting day, so I didn’t need to exercise then) … Yeah; I did it the first morning – got up early, worked out, counted my calories for breakfast, took a shower – everything was off to a great start … And then throughout the first day, we hung out and went places, and I ended up eating things and forgetting to count calories, or not bothering to because we were busy.  The second day, we woke up late and had plans, so I didn’t have time to work out or anything that morning.  Didn’t count calories all day, and by the time I got back it was too late to work out and the television was being usurped by a younger sibling.  Sunday was the rest day.  And that just about broke it for me – after not doing it for two days, I just stopped bothering with it.

That was my first stupid mistake.

The next one was to weigh myself at the end of the week.

Because of the stuff I ate over the weekend, and then just never getting around to going back to exercising every day, when I weighed myself at the end of the week, instead of losing 3.5lbs I actually gained 2lbs back.  Unsurprisingly, this depressed me – and when I get depressed, I don’t do anything to get out of my own way.  ^^;; I eat all sorts of bad stuff (and let me tell you, I suffered because my digestive tract was used to eating good, healthy stuff for months, and then I ate crap nonstop), I lay in bed – the only thing I really do is fullfil any obligations I have, such as going to work.  And park myself either in my bed or in front of my computer and play video games.

Which is what I’ve been doing for the past however-long-it’s-been. 😦

Until I kick this rut I’ve landed in, I don’t know when/how I’ll be motivated to get back on track – I haven’t weighed myself in as much time either, so I don’t even know where I’m at weight-wise, but I’m willing to bet that it’s pretty close to where I started, the thought of which depresses me further …

However, I recently got two very kind reviews/comments on my first blog post about TapOut XT, and they made me smile – I really did appreciate them.  Maybe sometime soon I’ll get back on track – I keep thinking I’ll start counting calories at least, but that just keeps not happening … I haven’t been on My Fitness Pal in forever either, which makes me sad because I haven’t been getting those happy little “[Your Name] has logged in for Xdays in a row!” alerts …

Ah well; here’s to kicking myself in the butt, hopefully sometime soon.

Thank you again for your encouraging comments; it at least motivated me to get up and post here.  Even though trust me, I didn’t feel like it … xD

Until next time (whenever that will be)